But if not on July 2

Time seems to be flying by quicker now. But oh how much I miss you it seems to make the time feel not fast enough even still. 

I've been thinking about saying goodbye to you, saying hello again to you..which ones more terrifying to me. I'll know soon what you want. And that's a 50/50 shot. It's just a fear.

I worry to reach out each time I think to.  If you don't want me, I don't want you to feel pain or sadness as though you have to break my heart again. Because I know that's just how you'd feel. I want things to be happy and good for you. 

And I suppose if that's not something I can make you

or be for you, 

           it's ok. 

It'll be ok.