PM

most nights its headaches

the constant endless thoughts of when this will pass

when this loneliness will be filled

what can I do more 

most nights its darkness

everything's silent

and I eventually don't have to feel or think 

favorite goodbyes are to each day after my head hits the pillow.

cause I'm closer to time healing

most nights its faking it 

for myself

for you

for her

whatever it takes to make it all better even just for a few seconds

but 

I'm just not there

it told me to feel the emptiness but the fight has only consumed me in it
Tell me how to pray harder for the how