time difference

in france it's 10pm and I fell asleep thinking about the past                   
       
          at home it's 3pm. 

                   i already lived that. 

your 10pm will never match mine
maybe that's why the past is something to long for

nostalgia is a b

I knew it was where I had gone with you this same time last year.
  The pumpkins still weren't free.
I knew it was that side of the balcony that we crawled up.
  The view from the couch was still pretty.
I knew I was attracted to him because of the country songs you played.
  Come on, he was an older version of you and your fire fighting bff was there too alongside him.
Picture that. God has a humor.

All I'm saying is,
I'm very aware.

quality #2

Honesty is a funny thing.
you think you desire hearing something that will surprise you
you already know most the truth
just hearing you've been right all along is actually worse than being wrong.

She can’t say anything nice so she held all the mean in

Whatever happened to the right words
The nice ones
The believable ones

Whoever threw them out
Digging your own grave cause words feel like knifes
And you’re the only one speaking inside

Whenever will you decide to stop
“I’m trying”
Breaking habits isn’t as easy as keeping up with them

a reminder

I'm grateful for you. In a genuine, real way.
Things you taught me,
that I am, that is important, that I want, that I can take on, that I can be.

Things you helped me experience,
excuse the cliche but idk I guess some emotional poet would say,
I found my wings with ya.

There's no question of it being worth it,
you were my best friend,
and you are always someone I'll smile at the thought of.

that's not just a phase for me

It's just been in my head.